Bulimia help ! :( :( :( :( :(?

im extremely scared right now !! like im frigging right now ! i really need help , i am recovering from anorexia and everything was going well until i learned about bulimia . im really scared i might be developping it and i really dont want to! i dont really know how to explain this but im scared that ill eat too much and then make myself puge ! i honestly dont want to make myself puge but im scared that if i eat too much , ill get fatter that i already im and urgg i just dont know what to do im really scared ! honestly , i know i wont make myself trow up but im scared to eat too much ! help ! what would be considered too much ? im crying i really dont wany to gain more weight ! urg i want anorexia and bulima to die !!! its so hard !!